Monday, April 20, 2009
Milestone
Past few days have been good. Karaoke with half-insane fellas felt liberating, the mic couldn't handle our voices. Met up with Shawn and had the usual whines of our mundane lives. Didn't find a place to babe watch, so we proceeded to random supper at some chicken rice place and that was a day well spent. Church on Saturday reminded me of.. well, Church. Nothing much has changed, but I pray much will be changed. Family gathering over dimsum fulfills our carnal desire and the send-off and welcome. One more day back to camp, and I somehow want to go back already. Maybe it's the ties, or the strangeness of having so much time. Whichever, I am thankful. Long week ahead, and possibly long month too. Grateful that the past month went by in a whiff - the painful and mosquito-infested outfield, the endless servicings and maintenances, the fulfilling and eye-opening and possibly delightful trip to Deutschland, the excruciating five stitches, the splurging of euros, and the hectic rehearsals and turn-outs. Maybe - just maybe - I may look at this eight months later and wish I were reliving it again. The letter i wrote to myself in 2007 reminded me that relationships, and not circumstances, stay constant. Afterall, I am no stranger to transition.
The last third, already.
Sympathy
Staring at the balls and trying hard to collide them. Submerged in the idiosyncrasies of life, of the want and desire, of the lust and the forbidden. Guilt-ridden and despondent; helpless; at the end of the tether. Incorrigible?
This isn't as easy as I expected it to be. Mind over matter, darling. What's wrong?